Technology does it help or hurt...

Technology keeps people connected at all times, but does it help or hurt us in the journey of love? Websites, such as, FB, make it a lot easier for people to let others know they are thinking about them. It eliminates the guessing game and effort one truly has to put in,  by simply clicking like on your status or link. For example, you're thinking about a certain someone and you haven't seen them in your news feed for awhile, so you check out their page to see what they've been up too. In a sense,  modern technology makes it easier for the person doing the admiring, because they can hide how they feel or how interested they are in what that person is doing. These websites make is so we don't need to pick up the phone and make a call or even a text, we can just update our home page, and then you know.


But what happens when that person no longer exist in your friend list? How will you know what is going on in their lives? Do they still exist? Well, gosh, I sure do hope so. Sometimes, we just need to take a second for ourselves and regroup; see what and who we want in our lives. Those who care will show it, no matter what. Sometimes, it's just hard to tell how someone feels, when we get to hide behind a screen. The truth and love will always win no matter what medium we use to express it. Put in the work, and show that love. People will appreciate it, trust me and love will be returned in time, but don't sacrifice yourself for it. 

Discovering Love...

I'm some what of a hippie in the sense that I believe in my horoscope and stuff like that. I read Susan Miller every month. (http://www.astrologyzone.com/forecasts/). It stated that within the month of May I would find true love. I've come to realize that love comes from within. Your "true love" in a sense is just a companion. Someone you can tell your problems to. Someone you can bounce ideas off of. Someone who you trust. Someone who you can  have fun with by letting loose without judgement. This bond can go deeper than just a romantic relationship. I witness something beautiful among a divorced couple recently. They were almost married for 20 years. Within that time, they had grown up and became who they are today, from the beginning of their romantic relationship until the end. But what I saw was magical. They had beautiful chemistry and flow. In a conversation, they used each other like a team to communicate upon a group. They both were charsmaic and could keep people interest easily. I could see where their problem laid though. They understood each gorgeously and seemed to be compatible. In the sense, they balanced each other like yin and yang. However, through out their whole relationship it seemed there never learn to communicate or maybe be honest within that relationship; that might be a stretch. But, even though, they might not work in a romantic relationship anymore, due to the difference in which they grown into  or lack of communication possibly even commitment; however, they are still friends and are there for one any other. There may linger some anger on either end of the halves, but together they will always be a whole through the connection of their daughter. That is a magical thing no one can take away. To me, no matter what they're issues are amongst themselves or each other, that is what true love is all about; Loving yourself while being there for someone who you care deeply about through thick and thin.


"The spark" we feel when we meet someone for the first, I'm not sure if there exist a meaning for it. Except that, I feel it is just an intense sense of attraction for a person and since we are not taught how to handle these things, it  seems  there should be a meaning; Yet, I'm not sure there is.


But its time to radiate the essences which lives inside. Love is the power! Love resides in family, yourself, and the beauty that surrounds you. This journey isn't about finding love or giving love, because these things are easy to come by; Patience is a virtue. It's a journey of learning to be able to be loved from yourself and those around you. Trying giving and receiving some love today!! 

Three strikes...

The concept of "three strikes you're out" is a good way to look at things.  The law and baseball follow this rule and do so for good reason. You're given three chances and if you choke when you're up to bat,  well than you go back to the dug out  disappointing your teammates. This is a standard I need to use in life. If you give someone to many chances they will walk all over you; that is a sign of  weakness. You are  giving someone power over you and letting them use you, which is not cool, but you have the power in this situation. If someone is treating you this way, its because you're letting them. You need to be strong, stand up for yourself, and demand people treat you right, because I'm pretty sure you treat them well.  Only give people three strikes and if they fuck up, no matter how big or small, it's time to distance yourself emotional maybe even physical from them. A smart person will realize that you won't put up with their shit and they will either treat you how you want or walk all over you, sometimes it is best to just let them go. 


You are a strong beautiful person babe. If someone is not deserving of your awesomeness, well then they shouldn't have a piece of what you're serving. In baseball, if you play your cards right when you're up at bat you can have more than three balls pitched at you, but babe this ain't baseball it's life. Time to start giving those strikes. This shouldn't just go for boys who you want to date, it should go for everyone. Because how you let people treat you, says a lot about how much you care about yourself. On this journey of finding love, how much you respect and love yourself plays a big role. So love yourself and don't take shit from anyone. Give those strikes and send to them the dug out if that is where they belong. 

Peter Pan

Did anyone ever ask Wendy what her take was on her adventures with Peter Pan? Well I think they should have. We all know the story about the boy who doesn't want to grow up. But what we don't know is the story of the girl who falls for his boyish charm. 


The story goes as I know it, that Peter stumbles upon Wendy while listening to stories outside her window. In other words, he found her. He persuades Wendy to come to Neverland in the hopes she will tell more stories. Through their interactions and wild adventures, she begins to have  strong feelings for Peter. They play this game like nothing is happening between them while Tinker Bell tries to keep them apart, because she too feels the same as Wendy does for Peter. Wendy begins to see the light and remembers where she came from. As the story goes, Wendy leaves Neverland and Peter stays, never growing up, because he is afraid they will keep him and turn him into a man. O Peter, but  Wendy doesn't want too to turn you into a man. Peter's boyish ways are what she fell for to begin with and would never want to change that. 


But Peter promises to come back and visit Wendy in the summer. Wendy is left waiting and saying, "You won't forget to come for me, Peter? Please, please don't forget." Wendy does wait for Peter every summer, but she moves on finding what Peter couldn't  give her. However, Peter keeps his promise but continues bring others to Neverland to company him. 


O Wendy, how hard it can be to care for a boy who doesn't want to grow up.  But maybe we feel the way we do, because we see a little piece of us in Peter and we long for  Neverland ourselves.  We all take the same fairy dusk to get where we want to go and for the journey of love. 

The Lies We Tell...

Telling the truth can be a hard thing to do. It's easier to not take responsibility for your actions and to just brush them under the bed.  But the boogie man will come out to play and reveal those lies when you least expect it.


Sometimes the best lies are the ones we tell ourselves. We like to pretend we want certain things; yet, we hide from our truth desires. Maybe because it is scarier to think that if we admit what we want the other person would run and never look back.  As it turns out, your actions will speak louder than your words. So instead of hiding and sweeping it under the bed, you should confront it and address the issue. Whether the issue be within yourself or with another, grow up and tell it like it is.


My bed rest on a frame and I don't think my shoes will protect me so before the man comes for me I should lay my desires out to blow in the wind:


Honestly, most are looking for the same thing, LOVE. Who doesn't want to be loved and have someone to love? Yes, fun is always high on the list as well, but why can't we have our cake and eat it too. Well you can. You just have to find someone who is looking for the same thing and likes doing what you do. Then you get it all in one nice package. Also If  you can't take your eyes off that person and all you want to do is jump their  bones than you have a win win situations. I've been single for far too long. I miss the cute notes, holding hands, the sneak kisses on the cheek while out in public, and the late wild nights wrestling in the sheets. To feel comfortable and safe in someone's arms, while knowing they are not judging, just expecting you as you are.  Love, commitment, passion, respect and fun are my true desires. What are yours? Figure them out before its to late and the boogie man takes his hold over you.

Being Born in a Barn

I must of been born in a barn for many reasons, but the main give away is all the pictures of me riding a tractor while I was a baby. Not to mention how I always forget to shut doors, but it's not even doors. Its cabinets and desk draws, you name it. Maybe I'm just not very mindful when it comes to that. I try my best though. Breaking old bad habits is one of the hardest things to do that is why there are groups like AA. Maybe there should be a group for people like me. It could be called Breaking Rude Habits for Those Who Come From a Barn, o wait that is too long. 

How does all this translate to love you ask? Umm well, it's hard to find good ones if you have the mannerism of a pig. Ok, not a pig, but you get my drift. 

I love this term being born in a barn, because it represent the  non exist of socialization of society. Sometimes I just don't how to react in social gatherings like fiending over spilt milk in front of a BOSS. Not Kosher, but I think I added humor to the night, right? 

Clearly, I have some more lessons that I need to learn. I'm sorry Mom I was such a hard one to train. It's no reflection on you though. If you learn later in life than that just means you gave me the skills along the way somewhere. Don't forget to shut those doors. Sometimes you have to shut the old one to open a new.

WARNING: This is just a blog. A way to express and create, many things are falsified. And Mom I love you!! You're the best!!

Full Circle

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Wendy, The girl who lives in the blue house with the big round t's, came to many revolutions as JC surprising walked through the front door. It was prefect timing and he was the best person to see that evening. Not even catching up yet, Wendy would bombard him with a question she had been dying to ask for months now. "JC, I'm sorry but I just need to know. You know how I felt about you. What did I do wrong?"


"Well there were a lot of things that went wrong. But I would have to say that you just over thought things and you can be a little overwhelming."As the night progressed, Wendy  would remember and realize why she once was so infatuated with JC as he dirtied his hands. She would come to realize also how a real man treats ladies, opens doors while letting you walk in first and etc. It summed up everything that had occur, well not occur but that was stated. Maybe there is a deeper lesson than need to be learned here. 


Another man would make an impact on Wendy that evening. It was her main man someone she liked to call, Dad. He would ask her the end all be all. "Why are you looking so hard to find love?" 


"Dad, I never have thought of it like that before. I guess I don't really know."


"Yea, well hun, just remember you are the only one who is going to love you the most. No one else will love you as much as you. And you won't ever leave or run away.'


Wendy, JC and Wise Woman would scamper off down the block to enjoy their evening together.  As "You probably think this song is about you don't you", played in the back ground,  JC and The Wise Woman gave Wendy more advice which she appreciated greatly and would take to heart to use in the near future. 


As a Wise Woman once said, "Silence is a virtue Wendy, sometimes you just need to be quiet and listen. If you tell everything there is no mystery left to unfold." So there are always secrets that are left untold or unshared.  The most important thing Wendy learned that night is you can't look for another half to make a whole. You need to be that full circle yourself.   J'en ai rien à foutre. I'll do what I want.