Light Warrior

“the best way to spend your life is through connections.” by Adam, from You Instead.

The light warrior

A man from far away land, who brings nothing but joy where he goes. He walks with confidence. His smile is as bright as the armor he wears to protect himself from his enemies. The light that radiates from his being shines, so big it lights up the darkest of nights and can be seen through the worse of white outs. As our eyes lock, we lingered in a stare for a second longer then we should have for a first time glance. A familiar sense filled my being, it was as if I had met this man once before. His stare penetrated my being in an unexplainable way. This caused me to shyly looked away.

After already meeting someone on my first night in the dust, and not having any satisfaction come out of it, I wasn't looking for anymore intimate interactions and connections. Yet our paths crossed frequently, because of mutual friends. Every time he came around I couldn't keep my eyes off him, not because of his beauty; However, he is a very handsome man. There was something drawing me to him. I just wanted to know who he was and everything about him. It must have been the familiarity I felt. Eventually, we would be introduced. Yet, we did not get the chance to interact much. One, because I wont let it happen. I did not want to be taken over by his powerful presence. I wanted to keep my distance. I was almost resistant to him. He tried to engage with me a few times, but some how we would get interrupted or I would be short with him. I wasn't trying to be rude, but something inside wanted me to protect myself.

I had build up a lot of walls revolving around men. Since he was attractive, I unconsciously didn't want to form any feelings or connection with him. I had come to the desert to get over someone and to lose my ego. I was on a personal journey that I thought didn't involve other people. O how I didn't realize, its the people who make the dessert such an oasis, from their heart and creativity. What I was unaware of was the second half of my journey involved this man to some degree.

He would take me on a journey into the deep depths of a dream. The adventure would start off with the simple of questions, would you like to dance. If you love music and moving your body, that is the last question you can resist. I felt like we just fell into a rhythm like we were the best of friends, or maybe that is what I was after. My last full day in the dust would be celebrated with amazing beats and a wonderful adventure into my heart.

As I sat on a white fuzzy rug under the sun, feeling like I was in a lost world, something turned on inside me. This light warrior had guided me into something I haven't felt in sometime. The light bulb had gone off. I came away from my journey with so much. I was introduced into a different kind of connection within myself and others. I finally felt, that love wasn't a crime. That love was something everyone wants and it was OK to give it. You didn't have to give yourself to give either, which was a very new experience for me. While on that rug, I felt like I was having deja vu, and mention it. The words that came out of this man mouth, made my mind and heart skip a beat. He simply asked, “Are we in my dream or ours?” If felt so serial, but I knew I knew the answer. We were in his dream.

The journey continued into the evening. As we watched a burn, something inside began to continue to grow. The birth of something magical was born as something as the beautiful and delict as the temple was in flames. Some times great things must die for even better things to be born. This is the cycle of life.

After only the ashing remained, reminding us of the beauty, truth was announced. We shared our secrets, what we had written on the walls of the temple. Mine of letting go of a past lover and his of ego. The strange thing was letting go of ego and judgement were the main reason I want to venture into the desert. I happen to find someone who was representing that.

As we parted, a little piece of me hurt. I felt that what I had found inside was going to be taken away, because the person who had helped me find that was possibly going to be gone forever. Would that glow leave with him? No it won't. I will forever be grateful for the moments and connection that was formed and found in the desert. Thank you Light Warrior. You are a beautiful soul. I wish you all the best.

Always and forever...

xo,

Andy